David Hall's Non-Duality Blog
My name's David Hall. I'm the creator of this web site and its content. I live in Wales in the UK.
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- Written by David Hall
- Category: Non-duality
In Non-Duality there is no finite, no definition of things. There are no limits. There are not many separate things. There is only an Infinite One without division or limitation.
Someone might object and say, "But there are limits. I was born and I will die. Everything comes to an end. My body is separate from other bodies. I am a being in my own right. I can't know what others think." Let's have a real look at these assertions and see if we can find any true limits.
Although we may think and assume, "I was born and I will die," it's not really clear who 'I' am and when I was born or began. It's impossible to define who 'I' am. We may say, "I am this body," but this body is changing all the time. We could say, "I was born at 2am on 28th January 1971," but that's just the registered time that the baby emerged from gestation. The time itself is subjective, as it's based on a manmade timeframe. It may refer to a point in time, but even that point is vague and never completely precise. Furthermore, being born isn't the beginning of the human body. The beginning of the human body can't be found. We could trace it back to the parents, but there is a continual unending flow back through generations and generations. Even what we consider to be 'human' is in a continual flow of evolution. Its origins flow from forms that we would not describe as human.
We have an understanding of what it means to die. We could say this is where the body is no longer animated. But even this death is not clearly defined, and we cannot say precisely when it occurs. Rather it can be recognised that the human body develops from a long undivided line of humans. It builds itself up by consuming nutrients from the environment, then it fades and eventually returns to the environment from which it is always made. So being born and dying is not as finite as we assume it to be.
Does everything come to an end? Well certainly nothing lasts. Everything that appears in the world will indeed disappear. It may take seconds, minutes, or years, but everything comes and goes. That doesn't mean everything ends. Rather there is a continual flow of coming and going. For instance, consider a drop of water landing on a pond. This creates ripples that flow outward from the source. The ripples are high at first but they lose their amplitude as they travel. They slowly fade and the surface is calm again. The ripples don't really end. They slowly fade back to the natural state, whilst their energy is transferred.
Is the body separate from other bodies? Only relatively so. The body is made of solid, liquid and gas, and it is separated from other bodies mostly by gaseous air. The body's apparent solidity of form against the spacious air appears as separate from other solid bodies. But this play of density of vibration brings about the appearance of separation. Consider water poured into a bowl made of ice. They appear separate due to the temporary solidity of the ice. But if heat is applied the water and ice become one. So there is only an appearance of separation due to the apparent density of forms. We could confidently say that all humans and animals are not separate from planet Earth.
How do I know I am a being and there are other beings? This is only suggested by the apparent separation of forms, that we've just seen isn't strictly true. The sense of who I am is generally based on a vague identity with this human body. But logically it doesn't stand. This finite being that I think I am is not necessarily who I am. I can't really find where it begins and ends.
So Non-Duality understanding is that we are not separate beings. Reality is an infinite singularity. We are That. It is understood that our nature is Consciousness, and all that we know is experienced by, in and as Consciousness. But if we are one Consciousness, why can't I know what others are thinking?
This is a common question. The answer is in understanding that within Consciousness there is an apparent variation of density that brings about a sense of the finite. Just as the ice bowl can hold water, so can the apparently finite mind hold its own thoughts. Thoughts are relative to the mind in which they form. The apparent separation of minds prevents the sharing of thoughts. However, that's not to say that there can't be communication between the apparently separate minds. To use another analogy, minds are like branches on the same tree, all connected by the central trunk. The Infinite Consciousness that we truly are is like the central trunk, but also the whole of the tree.
It is Infinite Consciousness that is the shared reality of all seemingly separate finite minds.
- Written by David Hall
- Category: Spiritual Practice
Stillness Meditation is not about making the body and the mind still, it is about being the Stillness that we are. We are the still essence that perceives the movement of the mind, the body and the world.
Usually in meditation the aim is to still the body and mind, and that's fine. But we can never make the body and the mind truly still. Nothing in the world is truly still. It is the reflective nature of the world that makes movement appear. It is the reflection or opposite of True Stillness. This is the real nature of the world, just as the real nature of a movie is the screen. Stillness is the underlying and pervading nature of the moving world.
So in meditation we can 'sit back' into the unmoving, unchanging, formless, aware being that is not just the essence of our being. It is the essence and the whole of all apparently separate beings. It is at the heart of each being, yet it is That in which the beings seem to appear.
This Stillness Meditation is the untangling of identity with movement and change. We withdraw from the fascination of the world and the distractions of the body and the mind. It helps for the mind to know that its identity is not this body. It helps for the mind to know that any limited defined identity is flawed, and that our true nature is without limits. Indeed, our true nature is aware of the apparent movement and activity of the mind.
We need to bring the mind deeper to rest in the witnessing of the mind and the body. Effectively the mind untangles itself from its false identification, as we remain the Unchanging One perceiving change.
In practice we allow the body to sit comfortably. Before closing the eyes, we recognise that we are perceiving this. We close the eyes. There are still sounds, but we recognise that we perceive them right here. We allow the mind to ease off a little. Thoughts will likely still appear, but we withdraw further from the thoughts to the perceiving of them. This may involve some to-ing and fro-ing, as we withdraw then become caught up in the thinking again. But none of that thinking is important right now, so we let it go again and observe.
With practice we go deeper. That's when the untangling of identification takes place. It is the mind that is going deeper to the source or essence. The nature of the mind is not separate from the source or essence, of course. It is the source or essence. This Stillness Meditation seems to bring the mind inwards to the source of Awareness, where there is really no inside or outside. There is only what seemed to be the source.
Know that you don't really have an inside and an outside. You are not the movements of the mind and the body. Yet all movement appears within the Infinite Stillness that we are. There is none other than this Infinite Stillness. It is the Infinite One Aware Being. That by which all is perceived. If you can perceive it, it's not you. If it is seen to move and change, it's not you. You are the Unchanging Awareness that perceives movement and change. This Stillness Meditation is no meditation. It is just being as you are. Pure Clarity.
- Written by David Hall
- Category: The Human Experience
Part of Non-Duality teaching is to recognise there is an ego at play. The ego is the sense and belief of being a separate self. The ego doesn't really exist as a separate entity. It is a thought-based persona. The ego has developed in the human psyche as the mind has evolved in a harsh world, where it has needed to develop defences to survive. Attack is a form of defence, as is hiding, remaining quiet, or making a stand.
We find a range of egos in the human world, from the most humble to the most selfish. The strong ego has the strongest defence, and prides itself on maintaining its identity and borders. It accentuates its limits to maintain its identity. It may even seek to dominate others and place its own limits around them. The humbler ego gives up its defences and does not feel the need to force or push. Indeed, the humbler ego is more open and at peace with the world. It's fair to say that the human world is ruled by egos.
But in Non-Duality we recognise that this illusory ego has been dominating too long. We learn to not be taken in by it, as we have done in the past. We recognise that its selfish aims are contrary to the infinite oneness of life. We see it as a bundle of thought-energy that asserts itself as right and in charge of this body. Non-Duality practice is to depose this usurper and allow the true selfless Self to shine as the rightful Beingness in the human form. The true Self is without borders or limitations.
Our practice is in letting go of holding on. The ego holds onto things, people, beliefs, and its sense of self as different to others. Slowly we let this go. The ego becomes humbler, and recognises that it has been living with false selfish beliefs. This human is not the most important being on the planet. The ego turns to being of service to others and less dismissive. The ego opens up and lets down its barriers. If we practise Self Enquiry, as taught by Sri Ramana Maharshi, we seek to find this self. In seeking this self identity we find that it is non-existent. The ego has no real lasting substance. Once rooted out, there is no ego or sense of identity. This is Nirvana, the extinguishing of the sense of being a separate self. It allows the selfless Self to come through unhindered.
That's the process, but there are minds reading this at different levels of ego-identity. The important thing first of all is to recognise that this ego has been ruling your perception of the world. You will notice it when it asserts itself or when it seeks to hide away. This is fine. But the path to clarity and oneness is in diminishing the ego. We can start by helping others, being kind and forgiving. Being willing to put ourselves out for others without complaint. Yes, drop the complaining. That's the ego asserting itself again. There may be rightful causes to stand up for, but be cautious of getting caught up in the ego strengthening its identity as a warrior. Humility is the key.
- Written by David Hall
- Category: Spiritual Practice
The practice of remaining present during activity is a practice of no-practice. Meaning that one recognises one's stillness whilst activity happens. Stillness in activity. But how do we do this non-doing?
A good example is driving a car. If you don't drive you can tweak this example, as it works with catching a bus, a train, a plane, or a boat. Within the activity of the world there arises in us a desire or intention to make a journey. It's not really that we decide it. It may be noticed that there is a decision making process, but this is part of the flow of the world. In Non-Duality we are not the flow of the world per se. We witness the apparent flow of the world. We witness the formation of the plan to travel. It may be to go shopping, to meet up with someone, to go to work etc. The reason doesn't matter for this example. The important point is that we are aware of the development of this reason. We are not this decision making activity. We perceive it from a point of stillness and non-action.
The reason to move and travel flows naturally from the activity of the world. It influences the mind activity and the body activity. We witness the movement of the body, directed by the mind, which in turn is directed by the worldly factors that led to making this journey. The body gets in the car. The driving of the car is fairly automatic, in that practice has made it reasonably effortless. The body has been trained to drive through practice and repetition. We witness the driving of the car. Remaining present means that we don't identify as the active mind or body during this process. We witness this. We are the Stillness that perceives the apparent motion of the mind, the body, the car and the world.
Whilst driving there may be times when the car behind gets too close, the car in front drives too slowly, a car speeds past dangerously, a call pulls out in front, or we get stuck in traffic. At these times the mind may start to complain, and the body may verbalise this. This is often a habitual reaction. The mind maybe gets anxious about the car behind or arriving late, or annoyed at bad drivers. But, remaining present, we witness this. We are not the mind or this mental activity. Indeed we are not the mind activity or the body activity. We are not going anywhere. We, Consciousness, do not travel. We don't drive. We don't think. We are aware, and awareness requires no activity. The thinking, the driving, the moving, appears within Consciousness.
So the practice in this driving scenario is to not get caught up in the mind activity, the body activity or even the car and travelling activity. It is to remain as the Stillness, the Awareness or Consciousness in which this mind activity and apparent travelling is perceived. We can never go anywhere. You've never been anywhere other than where you are. It may appear that the body travels from here to there, but we, Consciousness, do not travel. Travel and all motion or activity appears within Consciousness.
We don't need to practise to be still and aware. Our nature is Unmoving Awareness. We don't need to do anything to be what we are, and in truth we can't do anything. We may say we walk somewhere or drive somewhere, but Consciousness does not walk or drive. The walking and driving appears to happen within Consciousness. So the shift is from identifying with the activity of the world. There needs to be a withdrawal from latching onto thoughts and believing that we are doing the activity. The non-practice of Presence is in just being as we are, not identifying with the activity of what seems to happen. Remaining Here whilst the world seems in perpetual motion.
It is similar to recognising that the sun doesn't spin around the Earth. It is the sun that remains as it is, whilst the Earth spins around and around. We are like that still centre around which the world spins. But more accurately we are neither the centre nor the outer limits. We are the Limitless that appears to have a centre and outer limits. We are the Infinite Consciousness in which this play of limitation and motion appears from the perspective of a central point of view.
It is not us, Consciousness, that practises being the Still Awareness. That is our nature. It is the mind, or the mind activity that attempts this practice. But mind cannot achieve Stillness. Mind is itself activity. Yet when the mind withdraws from identifying and returns to the Stillness it is found that there is no mind. There is no activity. There is only an appearance of activity. Stillness is here all along.